I keep lying to myself everytime na tinatanong nila ako kung okay lang ako.
I always say "oo naman"
Parang naka program na saakin na laging positive ang isagot sa tanong na 'okay ka lang?'
I dunno but i always think i don't want to be a bother to u so i just pretend na everything's fine, everthing's alright.
Tulad nung gabi, kitang kita na hindi ako nageenjoy, kitang kita sa mata ko na gusto ko ng maiyak, siguro kung nandun lang yung taong nakakakilala sa internal side ko malamang pinapatahan niya na ako nun.
Human has different understanding. Iba iba din ng mindset.
I'm feeling sorry about myself, i'm just a pathetic human being.
I'm not worthy to interact bcos i kill the joy.
Toxic diba. Nabubuhay ako sa mundo ng puno ng kasinungalingan.
Nababalutan ako ng pagpapanggap.
It is all lie but when i'm alone, i am being true to myself. Free akong umiyak cuz alam kong walang makakakita, hindi ako mahihiyang ilabas lahat ng pain.
It is true that ur character defines u when u're alone thus i am weak, pathetic trash.
Sometimes i don't want to enjoy myself cuz i think hindi bagay sakin maging masaya.
Illogical yung pangalan ko sa sarili ko kaya ayaw kong tinatawag akong joy.
I often isolate myself to breathe, to think sappy thoughts, to remark pain..
Last night i saw how i unfortunate to my life, how my life be such a piece of garbage, not worth to live for.
Sorry but i can't help na i compare ang sarili ko sa iba. That's my mistake. I know it.
I can't see my purpose on this world, can't find it yet.
I'm trying
I'm searching
but here disappointments leads the way!
I keep moving forward towards my goals, i don't know if i'm doing it right but believe me i'm trying 😞
Sorry, i'm just improving myself to myself.
I'm in a battle with myself since 2000.
Tinadhana saakin yun.
How ironic i always wants to be happy but it ends up being sad all the time.
Put the blame on me bcos i never let myself be happy. The problem here is me. Such an inconvinient. Ang dami ko ng naiistorbo, sorry po sainyo. Naguguilty ako sa mga nagagawa ko sainyo. Sorry it wasn't my intention to be a bother.
Hontou ni gomen! Sayonara.
I always say "oo naman"
Parang naka program na saakin na laging positive ang isagot sa tanong na 'okay ka lang?'
I dunno but i always think i don't want to be a bother to u so i just pretend na everything's fine, everthing's alright.
Tulad nung gabi, kitang kita na hindi ako nageenjoy, kitang kita sa mata ko na gusto ko ng maiyak, siguro kung nandun lang yung taong nakakakilala sa internal side ko malamang pinapatahan niya na ako nun.
Human has different understanding. Iba iba din ng mindset.
I'm feeling sorry about myself, i'm just a pathetic human being.
I'm not worthy to interact bcos i kill the joy.
Toxic diba. Nabubuhay ako sa mundo ng puno ng kasinungalingan.
Nababalutan ako ng pagpapanggap.
It is all lie but when i'm alone, i am being true to myself. Free akong umiyak cuz alam kong walang makakakita, hindi ako mahihiyang ilabas lahat ng pain.
It is true that ur character defines u when u're alone thus i am weak, pathetic trash.
Sometimes i don't want to enjoy myself cuz i think hindi bagay sakin maging masaya.
Illogical yung pangalan ko sa sarili ko kaya ayaw kong tinatawag akong joy.
I often isolate myself to breathe, to think sappy thoughts, to remark pain..
Last night i saw how i unfortunate to my life, how my life be such a piece of garbage, not worth to live for.
Sorry but i can't help na i compare ang sarili ko sa iba. That's my mistake. I know it.
I can't see my purpose on this world, can't find it yet.
I'm trying
I'm searching
but here disappointments leads the way!
I keep moving forward towards my goals, i don't know if i'm doing it right but believe me i'm trying 😞
Sorry, i'm just improving myself to myself.
I'm in a battle with myself since 2000.
Tinadhana saakin yun.
How ironic i always wants to be happy but it ends up being sad all the time.
Put the blame on me bcos i never let myself be happy. The problem here is me. Such an inconvinient. Ang dami ko ng naiistorbo, sorry po sainyo. Naguguilty ako sa mga nagagawa ko sainyo. Sorry it wasn't my intention to be a bother.
Hontou ni gomen! Sayonara.
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