Caraphernelia

Natapos ko na yung binabasa kong libro na hiniram ko pa last year sa classmate ko.
It's about a girl became an orphan and how chaos and unfortunate events changed her life and personality but then she found that there's still a good deed on earth when she tried to seek the truth.
That made me realize na sa lahat ng unos na darating sa buhay natin lahat ng iyon ay may hangganan.
We always thought na there is no way to get out of it but what we didn't even realize na it is just another quest that must be fight on.
I often says to my friend whenever they had problems 'lilipas din lahat yan' and yet sometimes i can't apply it to myself at to the point na 'ayoko na suko na ko' 'bakit lagi na lang ganito' 'bakit di pa matapos to'
It's because I'm impatient.
I always think at the negative side, it is bcos I'm a pessimist and skeptic.
I always put myself down well that's me.
We're different.
Hindi ko na alam kung paano bumalik sa dati but i'm tryn to bring back my old self.
The optimist and enthusiastic one.
The world and the ppl destroy me, i fought back but i always lose.
I am a loser. Maybe that's the permanent on me.
Ya sometimes i felt the joy but in the end of the day, sadness embraces me.
My life is not like the story i've been read or the movies i've been watched.
It's just my life is a bullshit.