Misfortune

For all these pain i had
I still hope for the better outcome.
Idk if it's optimism but there's no wrong on hoping for good.
I trust someone who gave these struggles to me.
I know all of this will pass and another problem will come out.
This is life.
Okay kahit ilang beses kong sabihin na pagod na ako, aminin ko nandito pa rin ako, lumalaban kahit na iniisip kong sumusuko na ako.
I'm still here. Fukk.
Naghihintay pa rin ako sa magandang kalalabasan nito.
Someday soon maging masaya na din ako at matanggap ko na lahat.
Ang hirap ng lugmok ka.
I'm still helping myself and trying to love myself and trying to fix all the mess.
Someday matututunan ko lahat at maiintindihan ko din lahat kung bakit pinagdadaanan ko ito, kung bakit dumaan ito at kung bakit nandidito pa din ako.
I am still not healed.
I am still not okay but it's okay.
I am not in a hurry.
Still sorry because i still do those bad habits of mine.
Mahirap biglain lahat eh, proven and tested, promise wala akong mapapala if bibiglain ko lahat. Gaya nung ginawa nya sakin, binigla nya ako eto ako ngayon, sirang sira, hirap umabante habang sya masaya na, minsan napapaisip ako kung minahal nya ba talaga ako? Kasi parang hindi eh, masakit sya ah btw sana maging okay na din ako katulad mo.
It is so unfair.
Sooo unfair.