Thought it was real

I felt this before.
We are at my mother's room together with my cousins and it seems that he and my little brother are close now.
We were happy.
His face was quite vague on my vision but it's enough to notice that it's him.
Its euphoric.
We decided to go for a walk and then we found my friends, practicing their dance presentation so we decided to watch them dancing.
I felt drowsy and i try to sleep on his arms.
He wrapped his arms to my waist and massaging my nape.
He knew that i like it.
For me it was haven.
I felt this before.
I was about to sleep when my mom walked by in front of us with this little girl,
he told to my mom that he will gonna take care of me.
I wanted to go to amusement park and start to ask him my why's when my auntie walked by on us and ask him why did he left me.
I remember few what he said.
"i need to pass--"
The last word was deafening.
As i slowly lift my head,
the pain,
the agony,
the memories are also retrieving and then i just found out that the tears that i tried to repressed for so long are falling,
together with his face staring back at me slowly becoming clear on my visions,
I remember his whole face again and it gives a pinch to my heart enough to woke me up with these tears falling on my pillow.
It was 6:49 in the morning.
It feels real.
I felt this before.
That was a sweet nightmare.