AFTER 2 YEARS

 this is very late update to my blog.

a lot of things happened, literally and generally from my life.

of course, i went back to school last school year and now i am in 4rt year level, thank God!

life still sucks, but somehow i tamed my fucked up life.

thanks to myself for taking this course bc i was able to recognized myself more.

i think i can say that i healed myself from my past self issues, i over came it and now of course there's more to come and i think i am ready for that coz i know, life sucks after all.

i thought of writing here bc its dusk and i had a wholesome moments after taking a shower, my mother is singing in karaoke the song entitled perfect by Ed Sheeran, its mid october, the wind is kinda start to be chilly, i am sitting in my room with the window is open and the breeze from outside was running through my skin which is fresh from the shower and her way of singing the song was so passionate ironically i find it peaceful and i thought, this little moments in my life will be missed if i started to get busy in life, hustling on my career, making money and etc.

we are getting old as well as my parents, but its happy to see them happily in love with each other.

i am just getting excited and frightened about what will gonna happen for me in the future.

i am believing to my future self that she is strong and she will gonna be okay.

next year will be my last term in college, i know God will never gonna leave my side.

good luck to me

also, we are still in the pandemic but i think, everyone is slowly getting back to normal, the old normal before the new normal, if you know what i mean.

and just an update, im still doing my vices whenever i am stressed, lonely and anxious.

i had a relationshit last 2020 for 3 months, and that was a nightmare and pure regrets, now i have a relationship and we are are 4 months, i hope this will be my last but if not, well i will not blame anyone, i know life sucks so it is what it is lol but i hope, this time will work. but again if not, i don't know. i deserve to be happy and i love my boyfriend so *sigh* whatever

i am just happy i am finally went back here to write some shit and yeah, to be alive until now.

thank you self for not giving up.