it's been a year.
i got my degree and had my first job to a sick company.
i knew it from the start that there is somthing wrong with that company, but due to my confidence and self-efficacy, i decided to take the job considering the place is near at my house.
i got my desired position and eventually after probationary, i became regular.
the 10 months been tough months for me because i learned that not everyone even your co-department will give the help you need. in the end, you will be by yourself and you have to be strong on your own.
i decided to resign from my position as i felt that i am no longer happy and it is not giving me a growth anymore. for the past 10 months that i have been employed there, i have never taught by any chance the other facets of HR and i felt small compared to my other batchmate.
thought i know somehow, i have gained learnings but mostly it's not that i wanted to learned.
now that i am rendering, i have this feeling of confusion and career crisis. i even asked myself; is this position really suit for me or is this what i really wanted?
you know sometimes, i assessed myself, what if, this unfortunate event in my life is due to my bad attitude towards other people.
somedays, i can be hopeful for the next company that i might be employed but there's still the worrying with regards of getting end up with the same sick company system.
all i just really wanted is to be end up wit a good company with a good working environment in which will give me a a self growth as well as career growth and eventually will help me to pay back my parents with the good things they have bought me throughout my life journey and payback as well my friends who help me to appreciate myself and made me feel like i am an extraordinary person and matter person every single day.
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