making things right, i guess

i am actually in my office, sitting and putting my thoughts here.

this is my last day of rendering here and the nth time of breaking up with the a toxic and immature relationship with him.

i guess hindi pa nagsisink in sa akin na break na kami kasi hindi pa ulit ako nagbbreak down due to break up.

i will never get tired to wait for the right person as i know someday, he will going to find me.

we will meet at the right time.

i will never get tired to believe in that thought as i know, i deserve to be love right.

i know by that time, someone someday will definitely love me the way i wanted to be love or beyond the love that i really deserve.

i should not look back as it will keep me refrain to move forward.

by this time, i should be focusing on my healing and improving myself for my future partner.

i know there are also things that i should be improving with myself.

im aware of that, that is why i am continuing to fix myself and heal myself.

i should take this lesson seriously and avoid to make the same mistake again.

as of now, i have this desire to be with this guy.

he is intelligent and goal driven, but he is not consistent.

he can make effort but he is like a mushroom.

i really dont know his intentions yet but this time i should be more cautious about him.

it is not too late to make things right.

i don't want to be in a situation again where i am longing and asking for effort, time and love.

i really don't deserve to be treated that way.

Maybe, this time, ako na muna.

i need to be wiser, kapag may red flag akong nakita, bounce na agad.

hindi na siguro para babaan pa yung standard ko para lang sa isang lalaki.

i need to learn to be adhere to my standards as i know what i can bring to the table.

for the next company na lilipatan ko, i hope, this company will help me grow in my career as well as help me financially.

sana makaipon ako, masuklian ko ang paghihirap ng mga magulang ko and mapasaya ko sila.

this will gonna be my rising era.

i should promise myself to leave the past behind and keep on looking forward.

always remember that there is nothing wrong to feel sad and miss the person but that doesn't mean that you should go back.

It is not too late to start.